Jealous much?

I have blog envy. Is that a real thing? It's not how they look, although some are really cute. It's the number of comments.

I follow the blogs of several of our homeschool families. Some have been blogging for a very long time and have known each other for a very long time. But that doesn't make me feel any better. I like to see comments on my blog.

Sometimes I get comments from people that don't normally leave them. I don't know if they are regular readers or just one day say, "Oh, yeah, I forgot that she does a blog" and then sign on. But it's really nice to get those comments.

And then there are the readers that I forget are reading. Sometimes I open my big fat mouth and insert both feet. I'm nothing if not a glutton. After I post a blog and get a comment, I think, "Why did I post that? Oh, yeah, I'm an idiot."

I do get emailed comments. I have a couple of readers that don't have a google account that will eamil me their thoughts. I like those, too. I just wish that I could get the comments back to the blog. One day I'm sure that will be possible. It's probably possible now, I just don't know how to do it.

But, all in all, I am who I am. Still looking for that acceptance. Do we ever really grow out of that? I'll be a better (insert your choice of words here) and everybody will love me. One day, I'll grow up. I'm not sure when, but I will. And I'll get over this blog envy. Or, really, I'll just get over myself.